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self portrait

by alex eckford

When I looked at the image I based my self portrait on, I immediately focused on two things: The cage from which a person is trying to escape, and the knight being torn apart by green rats. Because this section of the painting is found in the hell scene, I knew that I wanted to keep the not only chilling, but also almost overwhelming environment that the scene works to create. As I looked at the knight getting attacked relentlessly I began to think about Bo Burnham’s “Welcome to the Internet.” The seemingly never ending array of different topics he throws at you as the song progresses, and the ever increasing speed of the tune encapsulates the nervous tone of the image quite well. With this in mind I replaced the rats in the image with various different images that represented the idea of the internet: emojis, devices, memes and dog pictures. I copied myself onto the knight because I saw him as a sort of failed means of defense. He is there to protect but is instead being overpowered by the onslaught of enemies. I also turned the cage into a cell with a brain inside to represent how the internet keeps our minds hostage and addicted. To contribute more to the theme of mind space I was trying to create, I added a self portrait of Vincent Van Gogh. I was using him to represent mental illness, as he is a well known painter who was plagued by his own mind. The grip that the internet holds on people often leaves them feeling worse off, and has been proven to contribute to various issues such as anxiety and depression. Thus, Van Gogh is included in my piece to serve as a depiction for  anyone who has been affected by their own mind turning against them. I also added the painting “The Scream” to contribute to the idea of being overwhelmed and fearful. My favorite thing about the painting is that you can’t tell what the person is screaming at it. It creates a concerned feeling of fear towards the unknown, which is in part what I want it to convey. Technology is an ever changing concept, and with the new introduction of AI, there are questions of what sort of unknown and unforeseeable problems could come with it. Finally, I added an abstract portrait done by Picasso in place of the person breaking out of the cage. Representing how the internet can lead to a flawed sense of self, you can make out a person, but as it is with abstract art, the features are jumbled and it can be hard to see anything specific. This scrambled image serves as a representation of people struggling with body dysmorphia and other types of self consciousness due to unrealistic body standards on the internet. This idea embodies itself in the woman’s ugly features being accentuated and creating something strange when in reality that is not how she looks.

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